Mad + disappointed caused by Low level of serotonin.

I am disappointed with myself.
I looked down on myself.

I called mom and my tears was flowing smoothly throughout the conversation.
And i think she noticed the changes of my voice in this conversation.
Frankly speaking,
I really cannot hold back my tears anymore.

I am so disappointed with myself.

But,
I don't think i have done anything wrong.
I deserved to get mad.
I remembered telling you extremely many times that i DONT bloody like HER, or THEM.

This shows that you never listen to what i said.
You never bother about my feelings.
You never care. Do you?

Mom said i was wrong.
Mom said perhaps you were trying to give a suggestion.
I shouldn't get mad. I shouldn't get angry.

Now,I tell you why i reacted that way just now.
First of all,
I thought you wanted to do more revision for finals and the quizzes to come.
But when you told me about THT.
WTF?!
If you said you wanted to do revision more,
i can accept that reason. It is very reasonable.
But THAT?
If you can afford to spend time for THAT, i don't see why you can't spend your time accompanying me?
It's not like events like this will be going on everyday.

I won't go anymore.
Even if the ticket is FOC.
My mood is spoilt.
And i really appreciate you efforts.

You can say i am not reasonable.
I'm very stubborn.
I'm very not-sociable.
I'm like this and I'm like that.
Whatever.
I don't give a damn cz you never do either.