Monday, March 29, 2010

Care and sacrifices?

You said you care.
You said i never understand how deep u cared for me.

What about you?
Do you know how much i've sacrificed?

Just that i didnt mention everything,
doesnt mean that i HAVE NOT sacrifice a thing.
Do i have to list everything out?

You said i never understand you did all these just for me.

You sacrificed your time with your friends?

Did i not do the same thing?

I dont like tell you what i've sacrificed since you told me before you always know what is happening all the time, you're just acting blur, not really blur.

So i'm ASSUMing, you know what i've sacrificed for you.

My air tickets,
i purposely book a few days after the last paper.
I could have straight a way fly back home immediately after my last paper on the same day.

But i had a hard time convincing my parents to give me some time allowance to stay back a few days, reason: to finish up the orientation work with you. Cz i wouldnt want you to do all the orientation work all on your own. Have you ever thought of that? have you ever thought of how much i missed home? How eager i wanted to go back?

You told me a couple of times that all you've wanted is to spend more time with your mom at home, and your family members at home.
Me too.

If i were you, if i really wanted to spend so much time with them, you know which decision i will make.

I gave up many opportunities to learn new things cz i wanted to spend time with my family. Even though, i do feel regret sometimes that i've lost my opportunity to get new experience, but to me, my family is always more important.
I can do this, but i do not expect you can do this....

Anyway, i know what decision i should make after tomorrow.

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Teardrops of sorrows

teardrops
is a sign of fragility
it symbolizes feebleness
that was what i used to have in my mind.
sorrow
has been part and parcel of life
gloomy-days will always come
downcast is inevitable
all these years
life has proven to me that shedding tears isn't a solution to problem,
no matter how much tears i've shed,
stockpiles of them are still there waiting for me
Now,
I'm 'immuned' to sorrows,
I've casted a shielding spell that'll protects me from woe
teardorps of sorrows will never be alive
this i promise myself
it'll never invade my life ever again.
-huifang-
(cprr)