words unspoken.

friends were asking me,
How are you lately?
How am i supposed to answer them?
well, not that good.....?
so wassup?
I don't know.
Feel like crying..... but i hold on to myself...
I tell myself, i need to be strong,
I am not dependent on anyone.
I tell myself, i cannot cry.
I tell myself, no tears, i Dont cry anymore for anyone else, not even for myself.
I'll just bury myself in my own world,
no longer hope or wish for anything from anyone.
I set goals for myself,
and i make sure i achieve them no matter what.
Just for myself,
Not for anyone else anymore.

The more i care,
the more i get myself hurt.
And you dont seem to notice that either.
So why am i such a fool to care and hurt myself?
Perhaps you do care, but u just didnt show it out.
I am confused now...

I just want to protect my soul from getting hurt....
but i dont know how....

I had a very bad dream this afternoon.
I dread the dream to be real...