once again, disappointment.

You say i should simply post anything on facebook.
My parents say i shouldn't have told my friends about my problems.
All everyone cares is about your face, your maruah....
What about me?
sometimes, i really wonder if i really exist....
Maybe i'm just imagining my own existence in this world...

So since i cannot say a lot of things in facebook,
i shall make myself clear here.

When i asked for somethings,
i dont like to beg for it,
means that i dun like to repeat what i wanted countless times to make my point clear.
It you really care, and listen to what i said,
you should be able to get my meaning, and what i wanted.

I dont like it when i said i wanted to do something else for example shopping,
and you tell me finals is coming.
Yes i am very aware of that,
Of course you're panicking cz finals is coming real soon and you'd rather spend you time on your games.
So, if you are really not interested in accompanying me to go shopping,
It would be better if you could be more assertive and make it straight to the point and say : I dont want to go out shopping with you.
Instead of telling me, Oh i go dota spend so much time already, sumore wan to go shopping, then not enuf time to study.... blah.
You can always tell me to go on my own.
i can manage that on my own.
Not asking me to ask other people to accompany me.
I DONT LIKE DOING THAT alright?
I shall go on my own if you're just too busy to go with me...
cz i really don't want you to put the blame on me when you cant perform well in your finals cz you're spending most of your precious time with me shopping not studying.
I do not want to be responsible for your lack of discipline,
I do not want to be responsible for your lack of self control when comes to invitation from friends to go to the cyber cafe.
I had listen enough to your promises that you will start to control yourself on games.
I had listen enough to you saying how much less time you have spend this semester on games comapred to the previous semester.
That is all for now.
I am very tired of waiting for you to text me when you finish your game.
You've been spending more than 5 hours there today.
I am very disappointed with your lack of discipline.