Serotonin

What the hell was i thinking today?
I really don't know...
I've listened too much, i heard too much.
I don't know how to decide,
I'm no longer sure if i did the right thing,
I'm no longer confident in my own choice,
I no longer trust myself, no longer trust my own perception.
I questioned myself, was i hallucinating?
I doubted my believes, i doubted my trusts.
I'm torn between my thoughts, and what they-so-called reality.

God, can u please tell me if i did not take the wrong path?
I keep on telling myself, he is not that kind of person.
But they keep on telling me, no one is trustworthy.

Dear god, how can i prove that what i had in my mind is not wrong?
How can i prove myself?

I promised myself no more tears, but i've broken my promise once more.

I need more serotonin.