I am really lost.

Oh god,

It's that feeling again.

I can't believe i still remember this feeling after all these while.....

At first, i was overwhelmed with joy, and then I heard somethings.

And the joy was crashed.

Every hope was crushed and for the first time, i feel like im in limbo, and i really do not know what to do.
I felt so numb.

Perhaps the numbness is due to deprived sleep.

Should i take this a a blessing in disguise as well?

I dont need a second wound that can never be heal again, even magic cannot do miraculous healing.......

God, please guide me when now.

I am really crying all alone now.

I dont want to cry anymore.