lost

i'm extremely exhausted.
feel so lifeless....
everything is motionless....

it's been a long long time since i last played the piano.
i meant since i last REALLY played the piano.
even when my fingers are running through the keys,
my mind is not concentrating.
I'm not INTO the songs i am playing.
i feel like a robot....
i played for the sake of playing, so that i cant and wont forget how to play the piano.
but deeply in my heart, i knew that i had indeed forgotten HOW to play a piano with my heart.
or perhaps i should say i've forgotten how to play a musical instrument.




fingers got stiffer than before.....
as if they no longer belong to me.....ME?!?
Every song sounds the soul of a living corpse strolling down a crowded street alone.....
liveless.......

-huifang-